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Wednesday, 18 September 2013
it's time to leave and start living
I have in the recent years come across a notion, that some people are sceptical about ones mission here on this Earth. I mean I know there is more and more talking about how we must again find ourselves and to reconnect with our innerself and it can sometimes get a bit anoying, especially if you are not very fond of this kind of things and thoughts, but the fact is that it is inevitable for us to face this fact.
Yes, for me it's a fact. Because I have already done some work and relatively succesfully transcended a couple of my old patterns and paradigms. But yet the hardest paradigm to overcome is the one that we are holding together as humanity.
We are one organism. We grew in certain patterns and were raised and shaped by similar ideas of what the world is supossed to look like and how it is supossed to run. We were thought so and rarely one questions what majority accepts. But yet some do. And I was always the one of the few that did. And that is why noone can in this moment convince me, that I can not change the world around me. Noone can for a longer period of time deprive me of my own accpeted reality, because it is now deeply inside me. And I believe in it. But not as a naive believer or a lost soul, seeking for help...but as a firmly convinced individual aware that all is but an ilussion and nothing that seems important, really is.
I am at the same moment a hard rock, firmly located on the ground and a flowing water, willingly changing it's current to obstacles coming its way. A controversy one may say, but knowing that only change is the permanent thing in life, the previous sentence makes perfect sense.
One thing that prevents me from having my eureka moment is the strong wish of having one. And maybe the key answer to this problem is to embrace the sentence that "it si only the path that matters, not the goal". But I am yet waiting for something to happen, for something or someone to give me a sign that this is it. And maybe my expectations are preventing me from reaching that moment, because it doesn't feel as I have imagined. And how do you know how something feels, if you've never felt it? How can you say, THIS IS IT! if it's supposedly to happen once in your life. I guess it's like with love, yoou know it's love when you feel it, even if you've never felt it before. I don't know. Maybe.
And to get back to my starting point, let's talk about our life's mission. I believe that all this boom created around it is a bit too much, but necesary if we want to inform people, they have the right to pursue their dreams and be happy with no reason of whatsoever, because it is their birth right. Because it is the time of change. The time to create. The time to live to ones full potential. The time to end the era of mind slavery and become free of limits that were put into our minds.
Sunday, 29 April 2007
others and me
some things are changing.. am i scared.. sure, why shouldn't i be. but then again, i do not let fear over rule other pleasant things. i started to look for an appartment, went to see two of them on thursday, liked one, hated the other ... but still no sign of any serious move. so i'm still sitting in the safe arms of my own room dreaming of my little own place that i would fill with our energy and then we would live there happilly ever after. it takes time, don't rush.. that's what alenka is saying.. i'm so impatient. but she's in fact the only one that believes in me. others around me just keep saying it's hard and that i won't make it and lots of other stuff that make me doubt, scare me...but then again, i think it's their own fears and doubts that they put on me... cause they don't have the balls to do it. i know a woman, that simply had to move away from home so she took a credit on an appartment and she took two jobs, she was like totally working 24/7 and i believe she will make it. i remember her often, although we don't have any contacts anymore.
so i think i can make it too.
and another thing happened on thursday that made me really happy . after one year and a half we are dating i finally was invited to his home. i guess he felt guilty cause we were supossed to meet in the afternoon so he called me and said if i wanna come to stay over night. OF COURSE i wanna!! =) so i went to Trebnje and we spent the night together. did i already tell you i love him...
so i think i can make it too.
and another thing happened on thursday that made me really happy . after one year and a half we are dating i finally was invited to his home. i guess he felt guilty cause we were supossed to meet in the afternoon so he called me and said if i wanna come to stay over night. OF COURSE i wanna!! =) so i went to Trebnje and we spent the night together. did i already tell you i love him...
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