you know what i realised...that we are truly obsessed with capoeira. and there is almost no chance NOT to be, cause if you're not really into it, than you don't do it. and how did i come to this conclusion? simple... we were having a party for Natasa's and Ana's birthday and what we did all evening, we were playing video clips from our batizado and put cd on repeat mode. OMG!lol
okay, we were not like staring at the screen all the time, but just the fact that we actually spent 80% of our time talking about capoeira, sometimes scares me!

are my lattest posts really boring for the people that don't do capoeira? i guess so. but then again, it's my blog, so i get to write anything I want, right!?

seriously, i could refresh it with some other news from my so called social life..if there is any left beside capoeira life!haha!
i am just healing my yesterdays hangover and i was watching this movie that was talking about life and love and the meanning of fulfilled life..what does it mean. nothing big actually. it's wierd to say, that fulfilled life is nothing big, but you can look at it this way too. it's life, nothing else.
maybe hangovers are not the best moments to be writting abut this stuff, but even these are a part of life. they're not really fulfilling, but as i've come to this lots of times in my life, if there wouldn't be bad moments in our lives, than we would not appreciate the good ones either. there is always ying and yang, black or white, good and bad marching side by side. that how it is.

and there is my relationship with Jure. it's something i have never experienced before. well, it's like totally different from what i had with S, but i'm not mourning anymore for the lost and gone. i believe S was the thing that you experience once or twice in your life, but it doesn't last. you never forget it, but it can't last. and with jure on the other hand is the thing that can last. i'm not in love, but i didn't expect me to be. being in love with S fulfilled me, and i am now almost in harmony with my innerself i could say. i don't know if this is the best way to put it, but let it be.


watching this movie today was the first time after we broke up with S, that i missed being in love. it was a wierd feeling, and i didn't like it at all. cause until now i was kind of okay and satysfied, and in a certain moment i felt this anoying feeling of needing something, missing something. and i'll definetly try to avoid it in the future you can be sure of that. as i've learned in my life is that happiness is a state of mind and nobody else but me is responsible for my own happiness.