- isms

sometimes it's good to write a certain periodical dairy so that you can monitor your emotional development. i usually write when my emotional state is slightly out of balance...in a good or a bad way. i am either happy and full of energy or pesimistic and sad. when i'm balanced i can't write, i'm little boring in that condition actually.

anyways, what is my emotional condition this time is the next question. it's pesimistic and bad. full of worries and negative thoughts. and what's interesting here is, that my state can actually be wiewed from different point of wiew and it does not bring the same picture at all. as far as i'm concerned everything's bullshit at the moment, but Tanja showed me that it is not. so what will it be? i think i'll go with the sunny version and try not to be over runned with the rotten pesimism of this shitty day.