i didn't know we can make past feelings alive again, like to incarnate them. i don't like that, i'm sort of person living for the moment...but there is simply one feeling that keeps coming back. and it hurts and i want it to go away... just don't know how to do it! it wasn't supossed to happen like this, i feel that there was a mistake in the process. just like a waitress brings you tea instead of coffee you ordered...you still drink it cause you don't want her to have any problems, but you know that coffee is what you need and it's the only thing that can satisfy you. that's how i feel now.... i'm drinking tea instead of coffee!