afterparty blah, blah

i usually don't write this late at night, specially not if i come from work. but i guess today those 4 coffees during the day and redbull in the club did their work and got me awake and not feeling sleepy yet.
i got this urgent need to write a blog when i come from work tonight.
i was thinking about getting and recieving and feeling love. but not love as a feeling between two people..but that unconditional love that is the base of all things, the pure feeling of completness. i'm not very romantic person actually, not with words at least. so i will not talk about stars and the moon in the sky and the cute little couples around the park. but about how when you truly love yourself, it shows. it can be seen on the outside you know. and the energy that you give away, it atracts more love, more affection, more...i don't know, just more attention. i can't describe exactly what i mean. people just feel that you are full of something. and sometimes they can be empty and they take what you have, but sometimes they can also give you what they have. and all this energy share, can sometimes be nice and sometimes it can be hard. sometimes i'm so tired of all this sharing you know. i just wanna be kept alone. but it's impossible. cause we are connected and once you're connected it can be hard to disconnect. people expect things from you, they call you, they wanna see you, hear you, touch you..feel you. who says being human is easy...well, he's wrong!

and to tell you the truth, i'm really not satisfied with what i have written. maybe i should go to bed anyway...