last few days i'm little worried about myself. i have so many questions that i ask myself. i have so many doubts in certain things i'm doing. and the things is that i'm the one doing them. i'm not sure if it's because i'm bored, or because i'm supossed to write diploma and i am only looking for excuses...or am i lonely or what? i thought i already had gone over the loneliness crysis and i guess i did but in a way, i also think that i'm a kind of person that just needs to be occupied with certain human relations. argh, sometimes i hate us humans being such fuc**** sociable creatures. sometimes i just need peace... i don't know why i can't hold still and focus on one thing. i have so much energy, but am obviously just unable to focus it on one thing. according to the movie what the bleep do we know, i could be theoretically addicted to complicated situations so therefore i'm searching for them. but on the other hand..it's not as bad as it looks like. as long as i have in mind that i'm in control of my life and i can do whatever i please to do with it.
eternal life knotwierd... i feel as if our lifes are always as some kind of abstract line that goes straight ahead for some time than starts to curve more and more, and then nods begin..and on the end it maybe breaks or just sort of straighten up again. well, my line is starting to get nods...and nods are not always easy to untight!
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